Black&Sexy BABY!

Ok so technically this will be the third thing that I've posted tonight so sorry for polluting your dashes to the 6 people who actually follow me. But I had no choice I am visiting this blog of mine for the first time in about a year and I had all of these unpublished posts about how lame my life is and I decided that that information is so irrelevant now and such a reflection of how far i've come that I don't mind if you read it! Reading them also made me want to write another post. This is my letter to my college self, you'd be soo proud!

Soo, yes I live in California just like I wanted to. I did CY a ten month program where you slave away for children making posters and spreading joy in boots and in one of the most unnecessarily straining draining and frustrating programs possible, while tutoring and forming relationships with little people. It was terrible and wonderful, and i'm ecstatic its over and completely devastated in the least tragic way possible. Yes,  an orchestra of contradicting feelings. Did I hate it? Did I love it? I don't think anyone knows how they feel about a year like that. I do know that i'm not indifferent there are certainly tons of feelings involved. BUT this is NOT what this post is about or else I would have titled it "WTF just happened?" This post is about Black&Sexy baby!

Yours truly (that's me) works at Blackandsexy TV and even though everyone removed from the black web series world hands you a massive side eye when you tell them where you work...we ADORE it! For like 75 million different reasons that I don't care to go into in much detail. But let me tell you about how sometimes when I'm "at work" I look at myself and say "hey bitch! how tf did you land this bomb ass gig? and why are they keeping you around?" And while I don't know the answer to either of those questions I'm going to ride this ride until the wheels fall off and since this company is very young these wheels ain't coming off anytime soon. Out of fear that someone worth mentioning may one day stumble across this I won't say any names or be too much of B&S groupie, but I thought it was important to note that for the first time in your life you are considering a career in just one field. You are staying in LA for more than just one year, which was what the life plan was, hop all around the globe with no real purpose until someone catches you and gets you pregnant. And as sad as I am to let the globe trotter part of my life plan go, i'm sure I'll find a way to reintroduce it in the future. For now web series production, behind the scenes; that's what we are moving towards. Maybe someday you'll be an executive somebody worth mentioning when Blackandsexy blows up. who knows? For now your hanging with the big dogs of youtube web series and I love it and I love them as people first and for what they do which is merely a reflection of the types of people they are and I am beyond excited to be an active participant in the movement. Broke or rich, they got themselves a ride or die chick in me :)

dnt publish this

Elloooo interneters. It's me again with my not so secret journal/blog. I now realize that more than one person that knows me well follows this blog so no more deep dark secrets for you. I will however keep posting cuz well i really enjoy talking at the world so yea. I don't really have anything to say today or a topic, u kno in mind so this just another rant again. Weeeeeeeellllllll. I just graduated from college!!!! (pauses for applause/cheers) yes i graduated in spite of World's many attempts at keeping me in my bed balled in a corner to drepressed to move i infact passed all of my classes completed my senior thesis and graduated. woot woot. NOW wat? I was just reading through my blog stumbled upon a post i wrote last year about moving to Cali, well that's not happening like at all. i also had a phase when i really wanted to move to Florida for  while cuz they too have sunshine, but um yea I'm not proactive enough for that so just lookin' for work locally which is exactly what i didn't want but reality sets in and you don't get be so picky so right now when people ask what i'm looking for in a job, all I require is that it pays in U.S. currency (but that's negotiable). For now I'm that senior that graduated but is still suckin on that reslife teet as a summer RA getting that free housing till they kick me out! I do nothing all day it's a real life issue, so I decided to start hittin the gym even though im tiny I am not in shape so I'm tryin to bulk up you know get some muscle in the right places, should look nice. i went to this palm reader and she told me i would be falling in love soon with a man who's name starts with a J so we're on the look out for J men. If a man waltzes up to me on the street and he's got it goin on and his name is Bob I will simply say " i'm sorry is that JaBob? if not u should keep it moving' cuz obviously palm readers know wat they're saying when they speak truth. So funny thing is the only people with J names that i've interacted with recently is the gay guy on my staff and the guy that makes the bread at cosi that always asks me for a piece of my sandwich :/ too bad the gay boy  already has a boyfriend! really sucky summer over here yall, hopefully it gets fun soon, and then i can come back and write a post worth publishing.

6/28/11

B*tches in Transition

Um hi, I haven't written or I should say I haven't actually published anything on this blog in like over a year so I figure there so much/ so little happening in my life right now that I should get some of it off my chest, especially since I'm no longer in therapy :(.

So about the title: I graduated from college a year ago....i know i know! time mother freakup time flies! In that entire year I don't feel like I have landed in the groove of what it is I'm supposed to be doing next after college. I feel like this entire year in constant state of transitioning. Not just me but most of my friends that graduated with me. I feel like if there were ever a movie/tv show made of my life this part would have to be called 'bitches in transition'. I'm living in my sister's guest room, working at my second job since graduating (quit the first one). Started paying off my loans, but other than that I had little to nothing going on in my life which is soooo boring.

While I was unemployed after my first job I decided to apply for CityYear LA kind of cause I was bored and looking for something to do with my time. Well anyways, I'm awesome so of course I got into the program, so i'm moving to Cali next year.....WAAAAAAAAAAATTTT? Yes I had an entire post about wanting to move to Cali after college and it did take me a year longer than I originally planned but I mean...its happening

4/22/12